Yesterday was a rough day for me. I slept for 12 hours. I woke up and I was beat, that’s not normal right?
So 2017, I walked into the year really ready to slay the year. Half way into it it really started kicking my ass and for the life of me I couldn’t understand why. I remember at some point in the year where I got home and I just sat and wailed, I remember calling Fena just telling her I needed this to stop. I am an extrovert, which means that a lot of people feed off our energy because it’s assumed that we always have our shit together. Let me tell you now, we don’t!
It’s the 22nd of November 2017 and I realized that, we need the rain to enjoy the rainbow. Sounds like something you would see in a hallmark card but guys trust me on this one. So I have a couple of pointers of things that have really pulled me through this year.
Truth! You need to breathe baby. I know somethings don’t make any sense but I need you to breathe, in between the crying and all the cursing. Take a deep breath!
So this year I started doing this really crazy thing. It is weird but guys it actually works, whenever things are really going left. I need you to open your mouth and say five things that are actually going right. It was hard at first, I had to think hard, I had forgotten that the gift of life, the gift of parents , the gift of music are all a gift. I learnt to be grateful for the small things, like being able to twerk with the girls on a Friday night because it means I have a tribe that I can always be silly with. I learnt to be grateful for things. I push myself to find the good in everything. OUT LOUD LOVERS! Say good bye to that funk.
I have a slogan, life tu! Basically the things that happen, happen for a reason. I am not saying get over it. I am saying that things have to fall in place first. You have to kiss all the damn frogs first, you have to loose all the damn jobs, you have to experience the good with the bad. Life tu! Keep it moving baby trust this damn process.
LET IT GO! Whatever is not giving you happiness. Let that this go! I am learning still, at times I will find myself saying yes and all I do is be bad company and end up transferring that energy to the people I am with. Say no to people who are not kind, you don’t need them in your life. Say no to putting yourself down. You are a star. You deserve all the happiness in this world.
Now listen. I didn’t say that it’s going to be easy lovers. If it’s any consolation, Christmas is around the corner. I want you to be kind to yourself
I love you guys.
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